Life is what you make it! You can sit and complain about what's wrong in your life, say God doesn't care, nobody cares and just exist. Or you can step back and say I need to get out of this situation ASAP please God guide me and fight your way out.
For years, I used to complain and live through difficult situations the same way: dwell on my case and waiting for something to happen. I used to say that God hates me, nobody cares enough to help me out. Not anymore! Again, going back to my surgery which was a turning point for me. A surgery that was supposed to last max 1h 55 mins, I woke up 5 hours later in excruciating pain with a soaked PK under me. Yes, I pee'ed on myself on the operating table because I had no catheter in. When I woke up, I found out that 3/4 of my stomach is covered in bandages. I found out they didn't make a couple of holes but they had to cut me open, my bigges scar required 19 staples. To make matters worse, the aid who just came in starting his shift, had no clue what type of surgery I had (the floor is a day surgery floor) and he turned me right on my freshly stapled scar. THIS was the turning point for me. I said to myself and to my sister that NOBODY was going to ever put a bedpan under my tush! One hour later, I was up walking to the bathroom to pee.
From that moment onward, I set myself achievable goals to get me to recover from something I didn't expect to happen as fast as I can. I was determined to not let depression set in. So every single time something comes up, I do this: I stepped back, assess, ask God and try to come up with a strategy to get myself out pronto. For example, I had a very difficult situation that I had to deal with, I said to God: "I know you don't give me things I can't handle but while I'm dealing with it just give me the strength and guidance to endure it like a warrior!" Before, this amount of stress would have made me physically sick but I did go through it smoothly. I always look back ONLY to see the lesson to learn. I take that and move on. That could be why I don't remember too many bad things from my post-op experience. All the memories I have are things I have learned from.
I fight my way through issues quietly and with lots of prayers always! God is full of surprises. For that, I'm grateful!
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